silver-skittlez

Of all the things I have been through in my life, the separation from the one and only man I love has to be the hardest to deal with. I am losing hope for a future with him after all of this is said and done because of my need to prove a point. Im hurting him and I don't want to. I wish I could just pack my stuff and leave with him tonight. I am bound to far to many people here and I hate to leave them but it must be done sooner or later. This is not my home because he is not here. I guess I will just have to deal with the pain and claim it to be for the better. I just hope I don't lose him in the end because that would break my heart to much to go on. He is my one and only love, he has my heart and soul in his hands and I will die in an instant for him but as many times as I try to tell him I don't think he understands the true nature and gravity of my love. I try and try to explain my feelings for him but to no avail. My words pour out like silver when I speak to anyone, no matter how many I speak to...but to him.....my words stumble in my mouth and get caught in my throat....the butterflies take flight in my stomach and my knees turn to jelly, I can't think clearly, and it's as if we have been together for a week rather than a year and six months. I need him here, by my side but I guess I will have to wait.....If he reads this I hope he sees a little bit more into how much I love him....<3

Comment and I will:
1. Tell you something I learned about by looking at your DA page.
2. Tell you a color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what movie, TV, or video game character you remind me of.
5. Ask you a question.
6. Tell you something I like about you.
7. Give you a nickname.
8. Tell you the object that is to the left of me.
9. Dare you to post this in your journal.

I was dared by slavetohim.deviantart.com/ so here:  

1: You are pagan like me!

2: orange

3: fave bombing you then getting my first 100 pts from you

4: Blair the cat from Soul Eater

5: fave way to worship?

6: your bubble personality!

7: vixen

8: desk

9: you already did!!!!

my spring break in just around the corner. Im so excited! I can't wait to prep for prom and go to circle meetings more. As for the update...its ALMOST done. I just need to add some more color and finish the shading then I will scan it in. So BE WATCHING!!!! I love you guys! You make my day worth while...heck, you guys are the whole reason I still go to DA! Thanks you guys! <3

Im working on a surreal drawing and I hope when I scan it into the computer and post it that you guys will see what I can really do. I hate that you guys only know my computer drawing fails....we shall fix that soon though. I promis.

Ok, so I messed up the order of an acronym for one of my drawings, and I know my art isn't the best when I draw on the computer, but that doesn't mean you have to be hateful. I drew 'bleeding rainbows' from my personal expirience. I have been bullied for years for being bisexual but I never changed how I felt for others. I did cut myself for years (and still do) and I have attempted suicide 14 times. I am an old soul with pain carried from many years. Please, if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all. Constructive critisism is different than hate mail. Maybe I should carve LGBTQA in my arm and MAYBE then my minor dyslexia won't switch the letters around in my head. I'm sorry everyone for not noticing that I wrote it wrong. I know the order but it switches in my mind and I can't help that. So I am very sorry.